it's been a long time coming... again

i'm obviously not an avid blogger. my track record of posts shows this to be true. yet... every now and again i get the urge to pen my thoughts down.. well, in this case, 'type' would be more correct.. :) i guess that's why i keep this blog going..

so much has happened in the last few years of my life, and it's sad in some way that all i have to show for it are these few meagre posts (and almost always gloomy in some way or another).

so. updates.


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i need to change the url for my blog.. THIS blog..
'future architect' is now pretty irrelevant, seeing as i'm probably not going to be an architect.. :p don't ask me what i'm going to be instead cos right now the future's so unclear i don't even know what's going to happen next week. (apart from the 3day KL field trip that's a definite event. heh.)


2
i'm in my last semester of an undergraduate bachelor's degree course in architecture. i'm not sure if i'm going to come out of it alive-and-kicking, or alive-but-crawling, or if i'll even come out alive. but as i've said to some, i'm gonna try to make this last one worth my while.

as such. i've undertaken a music module that's smashingly fun (literally. we hit on various drums and sticks and all manner of instruments as tutorials.. :)..) and i've come to a realisation.. i'm loving music more and more, and perhaps i shouldn't have given up the piano oh-so-long-ago. but life shouldn't be wasted on regrets yes? so i've resolved. i'm finally going to go sign up for those lessons i've been procrastinating.


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i'm being given an opportunity to reevaluate my life, my priorities, my habits, and to decide which are good enough to keep, which need improvement, and which should be discarded... cos rie's getting married, and there'll be one more member added to the family, and nat and saff are moving back to singapore and back home with us.

it's like the cumulation of everything - my graduation, having to decide what i want to do with my life... and that to be fair to me, everyone else in the family's having life-changing shifts at around the same time.. i don't know if it'll be too overwhelming for everyone.. having to deal with a newly graduated, unemployed, extra mouth to feed, whilst having to deal with a new son/brother/uncle, with the apartment having to now accommodate 8people again (from the current 4), and that these are issues to be dealt with amidst the other more pressing ones like moving and wedding arrangements! it's like these are all pieces that fit together into one crazy ass family drama serial. :) "The Choos", two-hour long special.. except that instead of two hours, it'll span across an entire year... :p

all this makes for a very exciting year ahead.. not to mention unpredictable, stressful, nerve-wrecking, head-splitting, hair-pulling..!!!

suffice to say.. we're gonna have alot on our plates this 2009. :)


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i've been singing.
anybody who's close to me knows i've been singing, and only those who are close to me would bother stopping by to read my rants/ramblings. so i'm sure you guys all know. :) and although the pay's been cut, and the number of sets' been cut, and we've only a pitiful audience each week, i must say this is one of the most rewarding things i've ever done..

there are perhaps few things in my life i can say i'm truly proud of, that make me feel i have a 'purpose', that get me all excited, or that increase my self-worth.

being good at maths and loving it is one. i get excited at the mere prospect of having to work on a maths problem (only easy ones now though, seeing as i'm out of touch). :p

being sociable and able to talk to anyone about (almost) anything, and be genuinely interested in what they have to say is another.

being great at pictionary, drawing under the stress of a time limit, being able to think on my feet (at least up until my sisters boycotted me, saying i memorised all the cards...) might have been another.. :)

but i believe singing is one of the few things, if not the only one, that makes me believe i was brought into this world for a reason.. that i might actually make a difference in people's lives somehow, however slight, by touching them with song...

and i'm really glad that i'm now able to share this amazing gift i've been given with more people.. i've been blessed, and i'm just so thankful, and grateful, and ever so humbled by the experiences this has brought me.. and maybe rie's right.. maybe i should go into religious music.. or maybe not.. all i know is, everyone's supposed to make something of their lives... and for me, at this point, i feel like i've finally found my 'something'... :)


so i ask God to help us get through it all unscathed, and thank Him for being here for us every step of the way.. and for bringing us all back together and back to Him again...
so.. i sign off with these two songs as a tribute.. (and very nice songs too, if i may add)...



On The Side of Me by Corrinne May

I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things
Go unresolved

Yet you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
Yeah you choose to be on the side of me
On the side of me

I'm not too proud of some things
I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide

Yet you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
Blessed Charity
You're on the side of me
On the side of me

'Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
When it's cold outside
And there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
All alone I cried
There was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
But you

I'm not the easiest person to love
But you, you've opened your heart to show me
What I'm worth

'Cause you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
What a mystery
You're on the side of me
On the side of me

'Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
When it's cold outside
And there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
All alone I cried
There was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
I remember when nobody cared
Nobody cared
But you...

Yeah you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me


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On My Way by Corrinne May

I'm far away from what I've known
And there's static on the radio
Just a girl in a car on a lonely highway
I've been up and down this winding road
It's getting dark, the stores are closed
The map is wrinkled, my coffee's turned to grey

But I'm on my way, I'm on my way
There seems to be no end in sight
But I know I'll be alright
'Cos I'm on my way, I'm on my way
Sweet embrace, I'm on my way

So many beat-up cars on this dirt road
I see them sputter and start to choke
How many miles must I go till I rest in your grace?
I feel like giving up and letting go
Let the world invade my mind, my soul
Will this road make me a sinner or a saint?

But I'm on my way, I'm on my way
There seems to be no end in sight
But I know I'll be alright
'Cos I'm on my way, I'm on my way
Don't give up on me, I'm on my way

I can picture your smiling face
Your arms stretched to hold me
Waiting there by the gate
If I ever get lost, I know that you'll find me
There's a cross on the hill
Saying, "Do not be afraid"

I'm on my way
If I keep you in my sight
I know I'll be alright

'Cos I'm on my way, I'm on my way
There seems to be no end in sight
But I know I'll be alright
'Cos I'm on my way, I'm on my way
Don't give up on me, I'm on my way

I'm on my way