the future

the same thing i've been pondering about of late is plaguing me again today... as i sit at the table, desperately trying to psyche myself into a work-churning mood for design and structural consult tmr... for construction consult on tuesday... the future..

school's killing me.. the stress.. the demands of us.... the expectation of us living up to these demands... not that they're unreasonable.. not from an archi perspective at least.... but my future in this seems so unclear now..... will i last? can i hold out in this ever-challenging and demanding world of design?

what does it hold for me... for us...... i want what i have now to last.... but how will that happen? indeed.... i think too much.. WAY too much for my own good... if only i could think that much about design... i wouldn't be in the rut i'm currently in...

are differences in beliefs, principles... character... what make a union unique and interesting, worth holding onto..? or will it destroy what we have...? they say "opposites attract"... indeed... they attract... but do they hold? *sigh*

not even sure why i'm thinking about all this... but these two songs are in my head just now.....

i really want you to be whoever you want to be... to do whatever you want to.... i just hope... i'm a part of what you want for your future.....


Burn by Nina feat. Christian Bautista

Do u wanna be a poet and write
Do u wanna be an actor up in light
Do u wanna be soldier and fight for love
Do u wanna travel the world
Do u wanna be a diver for pearls
Or climb a mountain, touch the clouds above

Be anyone u want to be
Bring to life your fantasies
But I want something in return

I want u to burn
Burn for me baby!
Like a candle in my night
Oh burn, burn for me
Burn for me!

Are u gonna be a gambler and deal
Are u gonna be doctor and heal
Or go to heaven and touch God's face
Are u gonna be a dreamer who sleeps
Are u gonna be a sinner who weeps
Or an angel under grace

I'll lay down on your bed of coals
Offer out my heart and soul
But in return

I want u to burn
Burn for me baby!
Like a candle in my life
Oh burn, burn for me,
Burn for me!

Oh
I want u to burn, baby
Oh
Laugh for me, cry for me
Pray for me, lie for me
Live for me, die for me

I want u to burn
Burn for me, baby!
Like a candle in my life
Oh burn, burn for me, baby
Burn for me

I want u to burn
I want u to burn... for me baby!
Oh yeah
Burn for me... (Burn for me)


Atlantic by Keane

I hope all my days will be lit by your face
I hope all the years will hold tight our promises
I don’t want to be old and sleep alone
An empty house is not a home
I don’t want to be old and feel afraid

I don’t want to be old and sleep alone
An empty house is not a home
I don’t want to be old and feel afraid

And if I need anything at all
I need a place that’s hidden in the deep
Where lonely angels sing you to your sleep
Though all the world is broken
I need a place where I can make my bed
A lover’s lap where I can lay my head
Because now the room is spinning
The day is beginning